My life has been so fucked up lately. I am so tired of being in pain and stuck in my bed. No one understands what I deal with outside of my husband and kids. They are the main reasons I am still here.

I have gained so much weight because I can barely move. I hate this shit. Invisible chronic pain is a fucking terrible place to live. I hate it. I hate it. I hate it.

I hurt after taking a shower. I hurt after washing my hair. I hurt lying in my damn bed. If someone tells me to push through it one more time I am going to cuss them out. Have you ever been at the point where even if you screamed as loud as you could, it still wouldn’t take your pain away? That is where I am, right now. FUCK!!!!